I’m Would (А мне бы…)

“How do you write music?”
“You know, I tortures for a long time”
«Suffering? Always?”
«Yes, writing music is difficult.»
«Hmm… Interesting… Here you all life suffer, and why? What’s the joy of it?”
“Joy happens at the first rehearsals, when I hear — this fragment turned out…”
“So much agony because of a good fragment?! And how do you know that this fragment is good and that one is not? Does someone tell you this, or do you decide for yourself?”
«Itself…”